Monday, March 26, 2012


Inspiration is a funny thing. It's kind of like a faucet that doesn't quite have an on or off function. Sometimes inspiration flows forth and it's unstoppable. You can't gather up all of everything because it's simply too much to remember. Other times, it drips and drops randomly through out the day, but it's not enough to sustain you. I've recently been going through a creative drought so to speak. But recently I've come across several people who've inspired me and have given me motivation to do better & push the boundaries a little bit.

Copyrighted Alex Beadon Photography

Copyrighted Laura Ferreira Studios

Copyrighted Lara Jade Photography

Hopefully these artists don't mind me showcasing their work on my blog :) I've loved them so much for being my unofficial muses & I can only hope to aspire to even be half as amazing and talented as they are <3

Loves to all!


Wednesday, March 14, 2012

Finding a Needle in a Haystack

Do you ever feel like sometimes you're grasping at straws? Like you're trying to find a needle in a haystack?

Sometimes I feel as if I come so close to finding what it is that I'm looking for, whether it's a job or a future husband and yet when I take a second glance at it, whatever it is, when I start to look closely at it I realize it's only a shadow, a faint glimmer, a pale comparison of what it is I really want. What I really need.

This realization struck me as I got a text message from a boy I've had a crush on for almost a year. We sort of dated for a short season and then he proceeded to tell me he couldn't commit to me for some reason he couldn't tell. He's still a dear friend and I still care for him a great deal, but I've realized that every guy I've seriously or even cavalierly dated hasn't been good enough. I've been unsatisfied with each and every one of them. Why? Sure there have been people who have taught me things, shown me things, and have not treated me like dirt. But why is it I grow so weary of going on pointless dates with guys I can only describe as "skim milk?" No passion. No fire. No ambition. No flavor. No meat. Everything is "okay" or "good" or "alright." I'm sick of indifference. I'm sick of apathy. I'm sick of feeling nothing. Have a damn opinion about something for once in your life. Get pissed. Get frustrated. Swear. Get upset. Get goofy. Get sarcastic. Do something! Have an emotion that isn't "okay" for crying out loud.

There have been so many jobs, so many locations, so many guys that have been prevalent in my life. So many things I've experienced. So many things have come and gone. And yet when all is said & done, I feel so unsatisfied. I feel so hungry. So empty.

I feel as if I get so close to what it is that I want. But at the end of the day, nothing is ever really good enough. Nothing has ever really held me fully.

And I'm getting really tired of it. I just want to feel completely content. Completely fulfilled. I want to feel as if I've accomplished something in every facet of my life.

Why is it that I feel like nothing is good enough in my life? Why do I want more of something? I don't even know what I want more of & that's half the problem.

I don't know if I'm making sense. All I know is that something has got to change. I'm sick of feeling like stagnant water. I need someone or something to challenge my thinking, my creativity, my world. Someone who'll rock the boat and frustrate me to no end but keeps giving me the encouragement to go on, to try more, to succeed. I need a muse. Or a cabana boy. One of the two.


Sunday, March 11, 2012

Fear vs Love

Though my soul may set in darkness, it will rise in perfect light; I have loved the stars too fondly to be fearful of the night. - “The Old Astronomer” by Sarah Williams

Thursday, March 8, 2012

Harry Potter

So I recognize that I'm a total nerd, already having blogged about JK Rowling. Several of my guy friends would be making gagging noises about this same time simply because they hate Harry Potter but I don't hold it against them. To each their own as they say haha. But I did want to pay homage to this book series & what it's done to enhance my childhood. Here's some of my favorite pictures I've found & quotes to remind me that there is always something worth fighting for.

Make up/Hair/Outfit ideas

I've always loved new ideas for different ways to do my make up & hair. Since my hair's getting longer & my style is always changing, I figured I'd post my favs for safe keeping :)