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Next Time I Fall

I have been on a Peter Cetera/ Chicago kick recently & I just have to pay homage to him in this blog post :)

Call me a nerd or a pansy or whatever but this song gives me hope. As cheesy as that sounds. But I absolutely love this song. It reminds me that with every relationship, you learn something that will make your next love last a little while longer. You grow a little more with every broken heart & every new start.

Love, like a road that never ends
How it leads me back again
To heartache
I'll never understand
Darling I put my heart up on a shelf
'Till the moment was right and I told myself 
Next time I fall in love
I'll know better what to do
Next time I fall in love
Oh oh oh oh oh oh
The next time I fall in love
The next time I fall in love
It will be with you 

Now as I look into your eyes
Well I wonder if it's wise
To hold you
Like I've wanted to before
Tonight oh I was thinking that you might
Be the one who breathes life in this heart of mine 

Next time I fall in love
I'll know better what to do
Next time I fall in love
Oh oh oh
The next time I fall in love
The next time I fall in love
(It will be with you) 

Next time I'm gonna follow through
And if it drives me crazy
I will know better why
The next time I try 

Next time I fall in love
I'll know better what to do
Next time I fall in love
Oh oh oh
The next time I fall in love
The next time I fall in love 
The next time I fall in love
The next time I fall in love

Enjoy 80s music at its best!

xoxo Megatron

Soundtrack for my Summer

1.) Realize by Colbie Caillat
2.) Hard to Say I'm Sorry by Chicago
3.) Dream a Little Dream of Me by Michael Buble
4.) Not Over You by Gavin DeGraw
5.) A Thousand Years by Christina Perri
6.) Next Time I Fall by Peter Cetera & Amy Grant
7.) So Far Away by Nickelback
8.) Lessons Learned by Carrie Underwood
9.) I Never Told You by Colbie Caillat
10.) Last Kiss by Taylor Swift
11.) Need You Now by Lady Antebellum
12.) Gravity by Sara Bareilles
13.) My Hands by Leona Lewis
14.) Diary by Alicia Keys
15.) I See the Light by Mandy Moore & Zachary Levi
16.) Stay by SafetySuit
17.) I Wasn't the One (Who Said Goodbye) by Peter Cetera & Agnetha
18.) Right Here Waiting by Richard Marx

Changes

This week is full of changes. Some of them good, some of them painful.

To start off with, I'm getting the opportunity to do a real professional engagement shoot tomorrow through Woodland Wedding Photography, my other part-time job. I'm both excited and stressed about it. The girl who I'm doing it for, I've never met, and has 0 ideas & 0 suggestions, making me not only the photographer but the idea man & the prop master.... needless to say, I don't need the additional worry.

On top of it all, she chooses the last day I'll be able to see one specific person for a few months while he's doing summer sales till September. I haven't blogged about him mostly just I don't jinx myself but also because I don't want to seem like that girl who's obsessive, desperate & pathetically twitterpated. The fact of the matter is simply this:

I'm gonna miss him. A lot.


But of course, I don't admit it nor tell him this because I'm too afraid and far too prideful & stubborn to admit I'm getting a little attached.

As the days are winding down & we're spending our last few nights together it's slowly starting to dawn on me that I'm really going to have a hard time saying goodbye.

I already have a hard time saying goodbye anyways, to family members, friends, roommates. But when it's a guy that I really care for, it's even harder.

I've been refusing to bring it up on purpose, but I've been losing sleep over what's to come. What happens next? What'll become of "us"? Is there even an "us" to begin with? Is it all in my head?

Let's just hope I don't completely lose it & start crying Thursday night. The last thing I want is to come off as a psychotic, whimpy, whiney little girl.


xoxo
Megatron

I'm Batman

This post is dedicated to a particular goofy, spaz-oid black cat how occasionally spends the night in our house. His name is Batman :)

Now I'm usually a lover of all animals, but I typically prefer dogs to cats. And big dogs, I might add. But for whatever reason, my roommates & I have fallen in love with this dog-like feline. Plus he's just so photogenic anyways! Heres' what I've come up with so far.

Leave love!

xoxox
Megatron

My favorite song as of late :)

So, I realize that I don't want to risk sounding cheesy or lame or completely girly in this post. But what the heck! I am cheesy, I am lame sometimes & I am a full-fledged bonafide girl! & darn proud of it!

So recently, with this past month & a half my experiences have led me to love a certain song by Lady Antebellum entitled Just a Kiss and another song called Kiss Me Slowly by Parachute.

With all of my relationships, they have always gotten super physical super fast. This song tenderly reminds me that it's okay to take things slow. That I can say no when I'm feeling pressured to give more than I feel comfortable with.

I have started to realize that I'm slowly becoming a paranoid scaredy-cat when it comes to relationships and actually committing to something that could be very worthwhile. But with these two songs, I'm reminded to take a leap of faith, and as long as I'm watching where I'm falling, that it's okay to fall in love. Even if it is for the 5th or 6th time :) So enjoy these two songs that are the soundtrack of my life as of right now.

I've never opened up to anyone
So hard to hold back when I'm holding you in my arms
We don't need to rush this, let's just take it slow...


Just a kiss on your lips in the moonlight
Just a touch of the fire burning so bright
No I don't wanna mess this thing up
I don't wanna push too far
Just a shot in the dark that you just might
Be the one I've been waiting for my whole life
So baby I'm alright 
With just a kiss goodnight

And it's hard to love again

When the only way has been,

When the only love you know

Just walked away

If it's something that you want

Baby you don't have to run

You don't have to go

Just stay with me,

Baby stay with me.

Well I'm not sure what this is gonna be

But with my eyes closed all I see 

Is the sky line through the window

The moon above you & the streets below

Hold my breath as you're moving in

Taste you lips & feel your skin

When the time comes

Baby don't run

Just kiss me slowly....

xoxo Megatron 

The Writer

So my critical self may point out that her mouth & smile are a little weird but I am in love with this song! It's the epitome of everything I love about art and music all wrapped up into one. <3 It's called the Writer by Ellie Goulding & it's beautiful.

Enjoy lovelies!