Deeper Side to You & Your Side Now

These two songs I came across randomly as I was watching wedding videos on http://digitalmemorys.blogspot.com/, mostly to just get an idea of what they look like & whatnot. But these two beautiful songs by Trent Dabbs & Phillip LaRue really moved me & continue to do so. They quietly remind my skeptical, cynical self that maybe true love isn't just found in Disney movies or fairytales.

Theres a fire in every mans heart
Waiting to burn
For some it takes a lifetime to learn
But back December when my world started turning
I still remember the day
I felt the weight of a thousand ships
Sail on

And I want to know what its like
And you want to know if its true
And I know theres a deeper side of you

I know its been raining on you
Since you were 17
The waters rose up so high
That you lost your meaning
I miss the summer when the air was so thin
I saw you come alive
What will take to turn the light on
Turn it on

Dont let them take you down
Let them hear you sing
Singing out

There you are behind a velvet curtain,
I am waiting outside.
Give me a signal,
let me know if its workin.
Everything that I try.


Cause it's a long drive home.
It's a long drive alone.


Don't hide,
Let me see it from your side now.
It's alright,
Let me see it from your side now.


All the talking as the night just follows,
All the leaves to the ground.
We're moving closer to the perfect moment,
and I can stil hear the sound,
of a good love gone,
on a long drive home.


Don't hide, 
Let me see it from your side now.
It's alright,
Let me see it from your side now.


Something happened while your heart was breaking,
you forgot how to trust.
I'm just saying please believe in something.
Start believing in us.


Don't hide, 
Let me see it from your side now.
It's alright,
Let me see it from your side now.


Don't hide, 
Let me see it from your side now.
It's alright,
Let me see it from your side now.

She Will Be Loved

I'm starting to understand why my relationships never last very long. This morning the awful realization dawned upon me in the worst way possible. 

I've always wondered what I brought to the relationship, what I contributed to my job, what more I brought to this world & how I could make a name for myself. But now what I've come to know is that the only thing I've got going for me is physical appearance. That's why none of my relationships lasted longer than three months. That's why it was always easy to get a man's attention, but considerably harder to keep him around. 

I completed my Bachelor's Degree in English Creative Writing with two minors in Humanities & Photography in 4 years, which to some might not seem that remarkable, but I've found that most people are shocked that I didn't take a year off to work, or go on a mission or whatever. I graduated with a B average in general, and in addition to that, I won three different times in three different categories for the best creative writing piece in my Creative Writing & Publishing class. 

Since then, I've sent in two different stories, one fantasy, one sci-fi, to FreeManderson LLC, which is a publishing company in association with Kindle books. My Immortal & Letters From the Sky. 

I have travelled to Europe several times, four times to England, twice to Spain, in addition to Austria, Germany, Italy, and France. 

I've played the violin for over eight years, and have done freelance photography for over six, in addition to constantly and consistently reading and understanding poetry by Pablo Neruda, E. E. Cummings, Robert Frost, John Keats and John Milton, as well as books by Jane Austen, George Eliot, Lewis Carroll, Paulo Coelho, Charles Dickens, Irving Stone, and many others.

But no, no one ever pays any attention to that. No one bothers to ask why my dream is to contribute to Young Adult & Children's literature with the four books I've already started. No one ever wonders why I don't want to do wedding/engagement photography forever and instead want to pursue fine art photography in capturing whimsical, ethereal moments on camera. No one is ever curious as to why I want to travel back to Italy to see the Keats-Shelley museum, the Pieta by Michelango, why I want to see the castles in Edinburgh, Scotland, why I want to go to the temple of Isis in Egypt. No. 

Because the truth is, I only have my female body to recommend myself to the opposite sex. That's all. Just a trophy girlfriend. Only thing I can rely on is my B cups, my long torso & long legs. 

Now I'm usually not a fan of Maroon 5, but dang Adam had a point in this song,

Beauty queen of only eighteen
She had some trouble with herself
He was always there to help her
She always belonged to someone else

I drove for miles and miles
And wound up at your door
I've had you so many times but somehow
I want more

I don't mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile
And she will be loved
She will be loved

Tap on my window knock on my door
I want to make you feel beautiful
I know I tend to get so insecure
It doesn't matter anymore

It's not always rainbows and butterflies
It's compromise that moves us along, yeah
My heart is full and my door's always open
You can come anytime you want

I don't mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile
And she will be loved
And she will be loved
And she will be loved
And she will be loved

I know where you hide
Alone in your car
Know all of the things that make you who you are
I know that goodbye means nothing at all
Comes back and begs me to catch her every time she falls

Tap on my window knock on my door
I want to make you feel beautiful

I don't mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile
And she will be loved
And she will be loved
And she will be loved
And she will be loved

All I've ever wanted was for someone to see me, really see me. Through everything. Through every sarcastic comment, through every forced smile, through every thoughtless comment, through every obnoxious laugh. 

Although it's nice to hear that I'm nice to look at, that I've got a decent body, I'd just like for once for a man to have something else to say to me than that. 

xoxo

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