So there is a specific reason why the title of my blog is "Fearless." There is a Colbie Caillat song that I really like that talks about this more:
If that's the way you love
You've got to learn so much
If that's the way you say goodbye
And this is how it ends
And I'm alright with it
You're never gonna see me cry
Cause I've cried
So go on, go on and break my heart
I'll be okay
There's nothing you can do to me
That's ever going to burn me
So go on, go on and leave my love
Out on the street
Better believe I'm fearless, fearless
If this is how it hurts
It couldn't get much worse
If this is how it feels to fall
Then that's the way it is
We live with what we miss
We learn to build another wall
Till it falls
I will be okay. This semester is a fresh start with many new people to meet and new memories to make. Although I'm still hurt because of what happened earlier this week I am cautiously optimistic.
I've been experiencing issues with trusting and relying on a certain person who I needed to confide in earlier this week. And instead of feeling like I can go to him and be able to talk with him freely, I feel incredibly insignificant and invisible to him. A burden. An obligation. I'm probably completely wrong, but it's just what I've been feeling the past few days.
Either way, I know I have good people in my life right now that I can always rely on. Who have always been there for me and I believe always will be. And in spite of my attachment issues and my abandonment problems, I am still trying to grapple with my faith in people.
This is a new start. A new beginning. And I have a feeling that this semester will be the best semester I've had in a long time. Now that I'm purged of some toxic things in my life, it's time to make my life full and satisfying.